Well firstly, thank you

"You have to put things in perspective Brodie. Any self loathing issues/depression can only be resolved by yourself personally - trust me, been there done that now selling the t-shirt via threadless; so my words will more than likely wash over your head."
That just about nails it

This whole thing has been going on for well over two years now, I'm still battling on it's just a work in progress. I mean, shit, a year or so ago I wasn't even able to articulate nor construct a single bloody sentence(medication does wonders >_<)

So a quick summary; I have severe depression, I am on 40 mgs of anti-depressant(but may be upping that soon >_<), I've been both counselled and reviewed by app. 3-5 psychiatrists along with doctors, I endured a year without saying a peep at high school(oh what fun that was) and - to put it eloquently - I am severely fucked mentally

But that is all just jargon bullshit, I am working on getting better and all that jazz, but trust me on this. I have experienced it all, especially the worst of it, social ridicule, suicide, family drama(lots of that). Now it's time to tackle the little things, y'know like my self-worth, social life etc

So all in all, I know what I have to do, everything you said, I have been trying to do, and more, to get out of this...rut. So yeah, nothing to worry about

The only reason I am being as upfront as I am is I know that you won't throw a pity party for me. I am able to be honest without you thinking I am bitching about all this shit. It is in fact one of the things I most adore about your personality. Truthfully I am happy all of it has happened, I wouldn't be who I am if it hadn't.